Update for March 2001:
Things are going well staying at home and with my daughter. I have already seen a difference in her (she's calmer and clingier) and myself. I don't become so anxious thinking of taking care of her each day even though some days are better than others. I am actually getting more rest than I ever did every day. One problem is that staying home can sometimes make me lose track of what day it is and the weekends feel like week days. That's just because my husband's schedule is so harry and changes often.
I now can fully see my daughter develop in ways I had not seen before because I had missed a lot of her 'firsts'. Often during the day, I pause just to stare at her in wonderment--her mannerisms, expressions and things she says.
Please note: I do not want any mothers reading this who cannot financially be at home with their children to feel like I am saying you have to be a stay-at-home mom. Remember, I was once a full-time working mother. I had a friend who honestly did not want to stay home with her kids because she was very career-driven and liked what she did. She still was an important part of her children's lives and their Christian development. God will let you know what is best for your situation. And pray, pray, pray if you want to stay home. This is a major praise report for me and it took over 2 1/2 years to have it answered. But it sure happened in a way I never expected. That's God for you :-) I HAVE TO ADD HERE.....that my family could not have made it financially with me having to quit work had it not been for my father's voluntary generosity. It will end, though in the near future.
DON'T EVER GIVE UP ON YOUR GOD-SIZED PRAYER REQUESTS BECAUSE YOU HAVE NOT GOTTEN AN ANSWER YET. YOUR ANSWER FOR NOW MAY BE TO JUST 'WAIT'.
Update for April 2001:
Life is good for me since making the transition to stay at home full-time. My husband and other family members notice the positive change in me and in our daughter. I truly do feel that this was the best thing I could have ever done for myself and for my daughter. I recently read somewhere that 65% of the population who have OCD do not work. That did not surprise me. But you can have OCD symptoms that are not so debilitating that it keeps you from being able to function fully in a job. Some of my family have very definite symptoms, but it does not affect their emotional make-up in a way that interrupts their life......although they do take anti-depressants, but at a very low dosage.
Update for May 2001: