You have heard of the empty nest syndrome--where the children leave the home and pack off and go to college. Well, that's me. I'm sitting in my nest that's about to be empty in less than a month. I saw my daughter graduate from high school in May which was wonderful. We just got back from visiting my husband's parents in Massachusetts--my daughter's grandparents she has not seen in about 8 years. It was a long overdue trip! But all these days are count-down days. The big day will actually be August 16th when we all caravan down to her awesome college of choice--a Christian one, I am joyous to say. It's the trip back I am a little worried about. It's those tears I'm afraid might decide to show up, the sniffles. The thoughts of missing my girl sitting next to me at church on Sundays, missing her laugh, her smile, her fun spirit.
We have 4 cats and 1 dog. I love them all dearly, but they just don't compare to my girl. Yes, they are cuddly--mostly, except for the 100+ lb yellow lab and one kitty who lives lying on the chairs under the dining room table--only to come down to eat and use her box. She throws up sometimes too, but I know you don't want to hear about that. Then we have Dewey, otherwise known as Fat Boy (my daughter's playful name for him--he is her favorite kitty)--he's a beautiful tabby cat, very handsome fellow, but quite big and can be fussy at times. The oldest is Lily, a Russian Blue who is 14 years old! She can be a grouchy old little lady, but also very lovey dovey and sweet. I'd be a little grouchy at times too if I was 84 in human years! Lastly, but not at all in the least is Hopper, our little black kitty. He is a character. So, we found out while we were just gone on vacation from the guy who was house-sitting our house that Hopper was jumping from the top of our china cabinet to an open central air vent up near the ceiling. We have one long air duct that runs the length of the house. So, he was jumping, a feat in itself five feet from the top of the china cabinet at an upward direction to the vent opening (they don't have vent covers from when we moved back last year, painted them and never get them installed again). So, he enjoyed walking the length of the duct to and from the kitchen. And when I went to take a nap yesterday and put him outside my bedroom--mister smarty pulled that trick again and jumped into that vent and came out the vent in my bedroom. Now that is either super sweet that he wants to be near me that much or just crazy or both!
So, this is what I am facing, folks. This empty nest and the pain strings are pulling. I'm an introvert and so spending time by myself is not problem. But, when it everyday--and will be for 2 months before she comes home the first time from college to visit---it will be hard for me. I would really appreciate prayer for this. Do I worry at times I might get depressed because of this life change? Yes, I do. I was thinking earlier a few months ago that I would be able to handle this all just fine, but as the time gets closer, I have to admit I'm going to miss my late-night buddy of goofing off, having deep conversations about life, watching our favorite cheesy TV shows and her telling me when she goes to bed, "I love you goobers and gobbers." and that's my cue to say, "I love you gobbers and goobers."
Please forgive me for not having written in a while. These dry bones of mine need fresh water. I am praying the Lord will give me that in the days and months ahead. If I have a few more days or a month of not writing then you'll know why. God bless you all!